"Love Hurts. Boys Lie. Friend Cry. People Die.

Parents Yell. You always Try. You're NEVER Enough and you don't know Why."

Haven't you ever got in a point where you do everything to satisfy your parents , but you just feel that every time they don't give any recognition about it?  Try so hard every time and it feels like it's never gonna work out? Where you burst in tears but keep it down inside? Where you feel so much hate, but the next day everything's alright? 

Doesn't it kill you when you feel that you're not enough for your parents? Not doing anything right to make them proud? Because nothing seems to satisfy them ? 

2 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS

So it's actually 2 days before Christmas and despite that it's been raining for almost 3 days straight, the city smells Christmas. The roads are full of families running for their final groceries. The cold wind ,and  the lights makes the atmosphere every more Merrier. How fast the days pass by. How nice is it to be on your Christmas Vacays, no research papers, no course reviews, and all you do is eat, see your loved ones and feel the cold rain. May this be a great Christmas and my best wishes to everyone .xx

For every end, a new beginning . 

" I ddnt think he, she,  was that type of person" ... a common heard phrase. 

As we meet new people, new environment, and as we live our lives, we meet thousands of disappointments.

Some small ones, some bigger ones, and some.. hard to cope with.  This phrase states that for every closing door, a new door will open. For every end of something , will be a whole new start to something different. 

It's always a matter of time, to forget and maybe forgive. 

Hello Rainy saturday night.

Saturday night and it officially is raining in Athens. Finally winter has came to Athens.
After a long, summer with upies and downies. I really do love it when it rains, cause most of the time it expresses what i really do feel in me. I feel like it eases the pain , when it really does not.
Summer Vacays are actually over, for my college is starting on Monday . New step in life, new environment, new people, new life. Nothing scares me more than big changes and the future. I pray for success and all the goods that life can offer. Looking behind, and thinking how fast we've all grown, and all the mistakes done, really does surprises me of how life rolls that fast. How we regret for thigs we've done, for people we took granted , for the stupid things we've done. But as they say , never regret your mistakes, for they are the only ones who makes you better in the future. 
Good luck to all who started and whoever is going to start school and college or university.
xx

Goodbye ... for now

I thought this was it. I thought I found whatever this thing Love was called. I know it was impossible, impossible for us who we know each other for a couple of weeks. But there was something in you , that made my soul go weak . I decided to trust Love and fall in its hole, with the hope that it wont ever take u away. 
But seems like for all good things, there's an end.  You're leaving , I never thought I'd accept it so hard. 
That night  we said goodbye, made me shiver , made me tear. I felt like I had to do something to  escape from reality for a sec. And so there were the booze, which led me to actions I'm ashamed of. But you made do this...


I hope the sun finds you alright everyday in your life.
I never forget, I never regret.

DANZARTE DANCE STUDIO

Almost a year and I've learned from the best dancers. They say to Live is to dance and to dance is to Live.

I personally chose Latin dance which consists of : Batchata, Rumba, Chacha, Mambo, Salsa,Rock n Roll, Merengue and Tango as well. 

Dancing always made me feel better, no matter how hard my day was, dancing would relieve not only my body but my soul as well. 

I remember a Cuban man I met in a party and told me, "No one is perfect in dancing. As days pass by everyone learns new steps"

CHRISTOS KAFETZIS 

VILLY GRAPSIOU

DESPOINA KOUKLAKI

VLADIMIR MOROCHKO

xx

Butterflies?

You're all Im thinking this past days.. Not easy to take it but hey, who told you to steal my heart?

That night.. that night was magic. I dont wanna know anything further, Im scared of the future. 

Let's just hit the road, and wherever it takes us, no regrets no pain no tears. 

Whatever is it to happen, will happen. 

You give me butterflies...

HAPPY WINTER!

And yes. Today is the 1st of September. Which means, Winter is coming real soon or better yet, maybe its already here. Time for sweatpants and hoodies. May this be a very very good and jolly winter for everyone. xx

MYKONOS 2011

Almost a week in Mykonos and all I can say is, it's crazy. Tourists everywhere, hot guys everywhere, free shots,straight clubs,gay clubs, good food and blabla. It has to be one of my most crazy vacations with my Goddess Clerie. 5 days of crazy parties, 5 days of meeting new people, 5 days of scary moments yet fun to remember in the near future.Wont forget the people I met :D  I hope to get back soon , but this time more organized and more chill. xx

One Abortion , one heart.. one life

Hi, Mommy.

I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to be a doctor when I grow up.

You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.

Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him aboutme! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. Itdoesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I don't like it, Mommy.

Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.


I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love you, Mommy.


Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't wantus. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?

You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?


It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do that when you're awake, any more?

I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.

...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love you!

Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!

Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.

Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!
I love you, Mommy.

Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.Two more eyes that will never see.Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.One more mouth that will never speak.

Best Bachata song.

Prince Royce - El amor que perdimos

This song is my latest passion and drives me crazy every time I listen to it.This song brings me back tho to a situation that is exactly as this song.

(Songs Translation.)

The Love we Lost.

Last night, I dreamed about you , about the love we have lost
the love I suffered so much , eh , and now Im lost
you told me you loved me, but you cheated on me behind my back
thats why our love failed
you may not know how much I loved you , but I always cried
although you never noticed the love I had for you
your lips used to tell me I love you
but you eyes rejected me
and thats why I dont believe in you any longer, woman

I loved you
I adored you
I don't want you veeie
I suffered till the end
I don't want you veeie


Kalo mina, kali evdomada
xx

Letter to Father.

Almost Halfway with the book 'Letter to Father' by Franz Kafka. A mello message of a grown up boy to his dad, who appeared to him so tyrannical and omnipotent.


Reading this story brought me back to the moment, where I had my biggest fight with my dad. If I can recall right, I've been embarassed to my friends one night, cause he wanted me home at that instant when he called me. I remember walking in the streets real frustrated and ready to face him and tell him all my thoughts once and for all. I remember that I've never felt such anger in the past. I remember that  I felt like a bomb, who was ready to explode. When I got home I had nothing to say, I ran into my room and took a notebook and a pen and wrote down all my thoughts and feelings I had towards my dad into a long letter. The next day he spoke to me and told me that if I weren't gonna get my ass together,I'd had to leave my home. And of course as always, I had my ego above my thoughts, and so I left. My Bff took me in her house and I haven't been home for like 3 days if I remember right. I remember my mom calling and calling and begging me to get back home. After those 3 days of being alone and thinking, I did went home. After a whole week being at home, and not speaking with my dad not even looking at each other, my mom came to me real frustrated trying to persuade me to go talk to my dad, make things as it was before. But no, I had another perspective from my mom. She thought things were so simple, but to be honest it was not. I felt like I had to put some boundaries in everything in my life already. But after a week and a half, it was father's day and I remember that I woke up real early and drowned in thoughts. I wanted to feel like I defeated my dad, but in real, I did not. I got my strong ego from him , so its obvious I couldn't go againts him any longer. I was walking into the hall real slow and just went and hugged my dad and said Happy fathers day. It ay sound simple, but it was not. I felt like a stubborn child, finally getting her ass back together. I felt relieved but still furious at the same time for giving up. But then a moment came where I thought that, I have a lot of friends, who have no dad and only had their mom. Even how frustrated I was, thinking about this eased the pain and anger I felt.
Parents may be difficult sometimes, but parents are there to Love you. I love you Mom and Dad